Monday, September 30, 2013

Who am I? at Eleven.

I've shown you some of my best works, but I can assure you I haven't always been able to even form complete (or good) sentences. Here is a piece I wrote when I was about eleven for some assignment. This was the phase were I thought really short sentences were cool.

        Who am I?
    I hate roller coasters. I would rather have my feet on solid ground. I am not a dropping person either, I would much rather be on flat ground.
    I love sports. I take dance, basketball, softball, track and field, tennis and cheerleading. I love it! Sometimes, I am so busy I go straight to bed when I come home.
    When I am not playing sports I am playing instruments. I play the piano and clarinet. I also sing solos at church. Last year I sang with my sisters. Who am I?
    When I was a baby, my brother put me in the bathtub and I almost drowned. I started to turn blue and I was life flighted to primary children’s Hospital.
    I like to hang out with my friends a lot. I used to talk on the phone with them but after we talk for five hours straight my mom told me to go on walks with them instead.
    I have twelve people in my family but in June we will have thirteen. My siblings and I are so excited I can’t wait for a new member in my family. Who am I?



Just to clarify I could play like "Mary Had a Little Lamb" on the piano, could do a cartwheel and knew a few cheers, and did a 3 week summer tennis camp. It's interesting to see what I thought was important to tell people like, "Who am I?" "Well, I hate roller coasters!" Way to get priorities straight.

Thursday, September 19, 2013

The Magic of this Moment




 Here is another story I wrote. It is actually inspired by one of my friends and my imaginary love life.

I couldn’t breathe.  My thoughts were a mess, thinking of everything that could go wrong. I did slow releves and put another layer of rosin on my pointe shoes. Looking on the other side of the wings, I could see my partner. I could see him shaking and any sanity I had left was gone. I slid into a left split. I had trained every day for hours. Ballet was my life, but at that moment I didn’t feel prepared. Maybe I shouldn’t have gone to my friend’s house instead of stretching. Maybe I should have been going through my routine, not worrying about who might ask me to Prom.
            I turned onto my right side. I heard applause and looked over to see the little girls run off stage. They were all smiling and giggling. I guess one girl had dropped her headpiece on stage and all the other girls thought it was so hilarious.
            I stood up and started to pace behind the wings. My only thoughts were all similar, “Don’t puke, don’t faint, don’t die!’ In less than a minute, I would walk onto the stage as Odette. My instructor gave me a thumbs-up sign and I turned my head back to the stage. Fog started to flood the floor and I realized that was my cue.
            I placed my arms into the graceful swan position I have become so familiar with and tondued front. Taking three slow breaths, I said a silent prayer, begging that I wouldn’t trip over my own two feet. And, as the flute hit its last chord, I flew onto the stage.
            The light practically blinded me and it wasn’t until I prepared to pirouette that I remembered to smile. The combination was tough, and a lot harder with hundreds of eyes on me, but when it finished, I felt good. The curtain closed for intermission and I ran off stage to change my costume and, hopefully, practice the pas de deux once more.
            After retying my pointe shoes and hairspraying my bun, I went to find Bryan. Bryan was a funny guy, but definitely not the first person I’d want to partner with. His red hair, freckles, and braces don’t really help portray the Princely figure he was acting out. And sometimes his hands are really sweaty, but he is an amazing dancer. He is much better than me. He also is very kind and not the least bit stuck up.
            I finally spotted him over by a little girl who was crying. As I came closer, I recognized her as the dancer whose headpiece fell off on stage. When he saw me, he smiled. “Isn’t she the prettiest ballerina you’ve ever seen?” he asked the girl. She nodded and looked at my tutu with that longing I knew too well. My cheeks turned the color of Bryan’s hair.
            “Well, I better go,” he said, patting the little girl’s knee. “Thanks for talking to me.” He then held his arm out towards me and struck a ridiculous pose and asked if he could “escort me to my pond.” With his words, my fears came anew. We still had half the performance, including my acting of Odele and then our traumatic death together. I fidgeted and checked my bun for stray hairs.
            When we got back to the wings, we realized there wasn’t enough time to go over our part. Wishing each other luck, we got in our opening places. After being on stage once, the second time wasn’t as scary. The second act went well, besides one of the fog machines going at the wrong time, the second half of the production started off without much error.
            However, when it was time for our pas de deux, I could feel my knees wobbling. Bryan grabbed my hand and I almost pulled back; he was sweating up a storm. Now I don’t know if you’ve ever partnered before, but imagine a sweaty guy lifting you in the air. Sounds gross, right? Well, you probably didn’t realize this will also make his hands very slippery.
            My hands were clammy and I’m sure I made a very unlady-like face. I heard a chuckle come inside Bryan’s throat and his lips tried to tell me something but I was turning before I could read his words. All throughout the first part, I kept looking at him, trying to figure out what he said. I came back to reality when I prepared for the lifts. I did a soutenu out of the fish dive and started falling. My pointe shoe slid on a stray bobby pin and I was tumbling backwards. Bryan was there in a second and pulled me into the move everyone calls the “awkward cuddle.” Although this wasn’t supposed to come until later in this dance, I was very grateful for his quick actions. The dance did end well and we finished on time. We bowed and the curtains closed.
            We ran off stage to change and discuss how well opening night had gone. I pulled on my warm-ups. Scrambling through groups of mothers congratulating their children and chattery teenage girls, I got to the rack that held my costumes. I slipped my white tutu onto its hanger and fingered the beads. I knew my parents didn’t come to this performance so I was in no hurry to get out into the audience. I finally hung up my tutu, lost in my own daydreams of the night’s performance when I felt a tap on my shoulder. I turned to find Bryan. Let me tell ya, he looked much different on stage than he did then in his jeans and t-shirt. “Do you need a ride?”
            I looked around. I guess I had not noticed everyone’s exit, but I was the only one left in the costume room. “Oh, it’s ok, I’ll just call my dad.” I said, while unzipping my bag. I reached to grab my phone, but his hand stopped mine.
            “Really, it’s no problem,” he said. “Besides, I actually need help finding my way home.”
            “Well, I’ll try to help, but I’ll warn you right now, I have a terrible sense of direction,” I confided.
            Bryan took my bags and easily lifted them over his shoulder. I smiled and he gave me this really strange look. Then, without warning, he picked me up and flung me on his shoulder too. I let out a screech and he chuckled, low and deep. The sound of his laugh brought me back to that night’s events and my tongue didn’t hold back my curiosity. “What were you saying?”
            Now let me explain. I’m not very good at talking to people (well, duh!) that’s why I dance. It’s my form of communication. “I didn’t say anything,” he said, obviously confused. He pulled me off his shoulder and opened his car door.
            “I meant today during the pas de deux. You know, right before the pirouette?”
He smiled and hopped into the car. Buckling our seatbelts, the silence from my unanswered question stretched on. Bryan finally changed the subject, “So, how’s your boyfriend?” he asked. Blushing, I told him I didn’t have one. The conversation lightened and I realized there was a lot more to Bryan than I once thought. As we got nearer to home, I found myself hoping the drive was longer. I felt comfortable talking to Bryan about his crazy siblings and the ways he pulled pranks on them. We only got lost once, and I have a feeling he did it intentionally.
            When his car pulled into my driveway, Bryan jumped out and helped me carry my stuff to the door. “Thanks for the ride,” I said, while grabbing the door handle. He gave no reply, and I turned to see if he was still there. His green eyes met mine and he grabbed my hand. I had held his hand so many times before, but never like this. This was real life; this wasn’t another character. This wasn’t a way to get into a lift. This was just two people that had only recently realized how much they cared for each other.
            “I love you,” he whispered.
            “What?”
            “That’s what I was trying to tell you during the dance.” I still wasn’t sure if I had heard him right, but as he reached out to kiss me, I assumed it had been something along those lines. Bryan pulled away quickly and with a deep bow, returned to his old self.
            “I will see you tomorrow, my lady.” For some reason, the words “my lady” hung in my mind more than they probably should have. I waltzed into the living room wondering if tomorrow could compare to the magic of this moment.
            For some strange reason, I was sure it would!

           

Tuesday, September 17, 2013

Here's a story I wrote for Reflections (a contest) a few years ago. (2011) The theme was diversity.

She cried as she hung up the phone. Her husband cradled her head in his chest and rocked her slowly back and forth. If I was the dog sitting next to the couple on the rug, I would be very confused, but I wasn’t the dog. I was the mother without a child, the women cradled and protected by her husband.
It had been two years since Jeremy had disappeared but every ring of the phone was a spark of hope in my pit of blackness. This call hadn’t been about my little boy, it was about a little girl. My tears weren’t tears of sorrow, but tears of confusion. I didn’t want to make the next decision, but I needed to. I turned to look at my husband and that is when I realized he had no idea what was going on.
I slowly sat up and took a sip of my water, then set it on the table next to the phone. I started talking, my voice cracking every other word or so.
“They thought they found Jeremy but it turned out to be a little girl. Her parents can’t be found and they were wondering if we would like to…” my voice wavered and I again burst out in tears. What if my Jeremy had been found, his kidnapper in jail, but they couldn’t reach me? What if he was safe and happy but with another mommy?! It was too hard to bare and it would be horrible to take someone else’s child. It was like I was replacing my son with a random daughter whose parents were probably worried sick over her.
“What should we do?” I cried again looking into Matt’s eyes, Jeremy’s eyes. Even at three he had been the spitting image of his father.
Matt, being the calm guy he was, softened my hair and spoke surely and slowly, “We have to help her, take her here and look for her parents. Jeremy will be here soon, I just know it. Wouldn’t you want someone to help Jeremy?”
Looking at it this way didn’t seem to make me look like I was stealing another mother’s child and I asked Matt to call the station back.
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Things happened much faster than I thought possible and I met the girl that night.
She was very shy and wore very plain clothing. She looked about five and they guessed she had only gone missing for about 3 months, yet her parents hadn’t been involved in the search, or at least not around here. The girl had shiny black hair and gray eyes.
“What’s your name?” I asked her, but she didn’t answer. The officer next to Matt proclaimed, “She can’t speak English.” He paused, “but we believe her name is Raylae,”
After more talking, they agreed Raylae would move in the next week. When the officer left I turned to Matt, “She can’t speak English.” I again broke into tears.
The next morning was a crazy one, first Matt and I called relatives and family to tell them the news. We then headed to the store and bought our little girl some clothes and a couple of toys. And then, I went into Jeremy’s room and cried my eyes out. Matt and I cleaned up his toys and put on the new pink bedspread. We filled the drawers with Raylae’s new clothing and then she came over again.
We talked to the officer and showed Raylae her room.
Raylae came over every night and played with her toys, she wore her new clothes back to the station and even called me “Mama” once. It was so weird and sad, but I learned to love Raylae quickly and she was starting to pick up English. I was “Mama” Matt was “Mate” and words like “toy” and “water” soon came. Our dog was her best friend, and she was his.
Before we knew it, it was Saturday, the day Raylae would stay overnight, and hopefully, would never again return to the station.
We waited until Raylae fell asleep and then the officer turned to leave. As he opened the door his pager went off and he quickly waved to the family and left.
As Matt picked up the little girl asleep on the floor and walked her to her bed, there was a knock on the door. “I’ll get it,” I said even though I wanted to tuck Ray in so badly. The officer was at the door and her had important news.
“Raylae’s parents have been found,” he gave out a big sigh, “but they are not alive. If you would like to adopt Raylae I can hook you up with someone who can help.”
Matt started chatting to the officer about the exact adoption process and I wandered to the hallway. I peeked into my baby’s room and inside was Ray, her mommy was gone, and if I wanted to, I could be her new one. Did I want that?
Raylae started to fidget in her sleep and I came over to find a little blanket in her arms. It was Jeremy’s. I wondered how she had gotten it out of the top of the closet. But it was then that I knew she needed me. I knew I needed to make her part of my family.
About a year later Jeremy was found and returned to us. He had been living with a family in Canada. Our two children became best friends, and if they hadn’t been different races, people would have mistaken them for twins.


Wednesday, September 4, 2013

I'm From



A boy plunged his hands into the glass of liquid
the fear more piercing than the cold.
He grabbed the body and pulled it to his chest;
his heart pumped rapidly
as mine stood still.

I’m from a large family:
eight daughters, four sons.
This would always change my look on life
always separate me from the crowd.

I’m from a backyard swing
and a long blue slide,
a trip to a magic world,
a ride on my bike.

The boy was a rain cloud,
gloomy, but ready to burst.
The helicopter flew away
and they were left to wait.

I’m from an old beat-up wooden floor,
the echo of footfalls
and the faint smell of rosin,
like the bark of an aspen tree.

I’m from the long late night studies
and the humbling prayers,
from the adventurous camps
and the stories from the hearts’
of my accepting friends.

The doctors tried to make the baby open up her eyes
knowing this incident would affect her whole life.

I’m from a rosed-cheeked mother
and an easily persuaded dad,
a worthy neighbor,
and a loving Brother.



I had to write this poem for school, not exactly my favorite format and I even took of the last stanza because it didn't flow but was necessary for the grade.  Yeah so I'm pretty sure I'm the only one who didn't start every stanza with "I'm From" but I kinda like it. What do you think?